Home Sweet Home...sort of

So, I'm all settled into my new apartment. I'm actually pretty proud of myself considering I only had a couple of days and now the apartment looks like I've always lived there.

I got all nice and moved in on Friday, unpacked on Saturday, and cleaned the apartment yesterday. In between all that I had tons of help from Donnie, Chris, and Marc...

Still, coming home to an empty apartment and going to bed alone is hard. I miss Stephen and the nights are the hardest. Isn't that a song?

Anyway, I kept the one memory...this huge stuffed white dog with a pink nose and ears that he gave me for our first Valentine's day; I named him Doodles....I've been hugging it at night when I sleep...is that wierd?

It's the wierdest thing to have an understanding that someday the pain will leave me and at the same time feel as if it never will.

Hang in there through the sad posts because eventually I'll be dishing about hot dates...you can bet on that.